Today was a pretty sheisty day. I did absolutely nothing except miss home. I'm seriously upset about missing football season considering it's my favorite part of the year back home. The only thing that really keeps me going is skyping with my friends, although it's still hard to figure out a time to skype a lot of people. Last night I skyped with my friend Erin right before she went out on a date, and it was nice to have some girl talk and gossip again. Then I skyped with Megan aka Lisa ;) which is always brightens even the worst of days. Through everything I have made her put up with, good and bad, she has been the greatest friend to me and I know I can trust her with anything and turn to her in any situation. One thing I miss about BG (there aren't many) is the hilarious antics we created every morning in the car on the way to school. You can't have a bad day when you start it off with your best friend being a goofball... oh, and Romero & Pebbles. Happy Lis? :)
For "dinner" tonight I went to a diner with Gabby, Mackenzie, and Teagan. It kinda blew. I don't have an appetite so I just got a milkshake and a Sprite, but everything I did try to order, they didn't have. It was just one of those days where the world was against me. My body still isn't used to being here; the food makes me feel sick and I'm exhausted all day but can't sleep at night. Anything from home is always comforting because a sense of normalcy here is hard to find.
I'm burning bridges with people back home that don't care about me as much as I care about them. There is no room for baggage here. All I have and need is my family and a few of my very close friends (you know who you are and I love you to death).
Hopefully the days will get better and the city more enjoyable as we begin to have organized activities and trips. We are working on getting a weekly stipend for groceries, as our counterparts on the France trip get two free meals a day. That will be extremely helpful because money here is tight since most things are much more expensive. It's already stressful enough adjusting to a living in a new country without having to think constantly about money.
I'm trying to remain appreciative day to day, but it's hard not to wish for home sometimes. Before I left, I told myself no matter what, I wouldn't come home. So I'm sticking it out in hopes that things will turn around.
Until tomorrow, ciao!
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